The Wordsmiths Book 2021

Maybe

Maybe it’s just that you didn’t see me hurt, maybe it’s just that you didn’t see the tears fall from my face. Maybe just maybe you didn’t take it the way i did, but when the words were said i think my heart broke. I couldn’t help myself but doubt, doubt you, doubt me, doubt us. I didn’t think that something like that would hurt me like it did, such a small joke meaning so much. Maybe it’s my fault, maybe it’s because I’m too busy breaking my own heart, maybe it’s because I need that reason to not be okay. But still I didn’t think you could ever understand that everything small rings in my head. Putting together a story of how our love is fictional. I’m sorry for the stress and the thoughts, but I’m not sorry for showing you that I love you, The way you took that and laughed, my heart broke on the spot. Shattered in pieces as I saw what I really meant to you, just a laugh, just a fun time. You did it all just to show your friend who you were I guess along the way you showed me too. Because now I don’t know where we are, if you even love me like you say. All my ignored messages, all the missed calls. Every time I smile balanced with every time I’ve cried. My heart really did break, you said sorry but what good is sorry. Maybe if you loved me you wouldn’t do this, maybe just maybe you wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. But maybe it’s just something that I did,

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